For those of you who don’t follow my Instagram, sorry for keeping you waiting.
The biopsy results were the best possible. I have an apical cyst, which means surgery will not be nearly as extensive as I thought it would be. I still have a large cyst which needs to be removed, but it is completely benign and I should be able to have it removed with just a day surgery. Dr Matthews is no longer my specialist, and I’ve been referred to an oral surgeon whose name I can’t remember.
Besides the overwhelmingly good news that I am not going to have “extensive surgery with a long recovery”, I still have a lot of questions and I found my biopsy follow up appointment to be quite frustrating. I don’t yet have an appointment with my new specialist. The specialist will call me at some point but Dr Matthews was unable to give me a timeframe. I also don’t know what this new surgery will look like, or what the recovery will be. I have no surgery date and no one to contact to ask these questions.
Of course I tried to ask Google what to expect, but Google was not helpful. Most of the studies I could find dealt with patients whose cysts were in the 4-8mm range, Timf is 23mm. Also, my teeth are still alive and it seems like in all the case studies I looked at the subjects had dead teeth. It’s likely for the best that Google is not an apical cyst expert, this way I can’t waste my energy thinking out the various scenarios.
Dr Matthews cautioned me against getting too excited about my summer adventures. I have decided to ignore this advice. I registered for Sinister 7 and I’m making plans to run the Great Divide Trail with some friends. After 3 months of being in limbo I am still somewhat in limbo … but I’m ready to move on. If I find out that I can’t participate in these adventures I will deal with that hurdle when it comes.
I have hardly been doing any running these last several weeks. I haven’t been a total slug, but I’ve been enjoying skiing, bouldering and weight-lifting instead. If I’m going to run 1100kms this summer it’s time to pick up my socks and start building my run volume back up. I’m looking forward to adding some structure back into my life.
I am so grateful that Timf is as mild as a large sinus growth can be, and that this will soon be a chapter of my past life. I hope to embrace this learning experience; to remember the support I’ve received from my community and to run every day with joy.